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A Lesson in Breadcrumbs

by AMINAH

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1.
Fox Hunt 04:55
When words fail, and Images are all you see The nightmares, the torment The melancholy, {the lament} (x2) Should’ve known better I went hunting for you Night hunting for you Missed the sadness, the hurt The nightmares, {my fox hunt} (x2) You are my sleepless nights (x2) Slow blurry torment I dodged a bullet, they said But I never got out alive No, this cannot be alive Been in a fox hole Trying to smoke you out The thought of you hanging over me Falling like an hour glass guillotine Cutting me off at every seam I flat-lined a recovery Gave up a 6 year sobriety No camera, no box of light Traps the darkness Of my hunting fright My red blood In your green daggered eyes You are my sleepless nights Slow blurry torment I dodged a bullet, they said But I never got out alive No, this cannot be alive I can’t help but wonder Was this your plan all along? Was it your “happily ever after” To kill me off? Do you wish me dead? You never finish what you start You are my sleepless nights (x2) Slow blurry torment The hurt, the nightmares The fox hunt, my fox hunt © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
2.
Free Will 03:51
And sometimes light is dark I can’t tell or pull them apart I miss when art was art And you had true free will to feel To think or say anything That you felt was real Now it’s nothing but a paper trail You gotta cover Just take cover Chorus: Can you promise me this goes away Can you promise this will stop Or is this just my idle mind That you are the devil of I keep pushing, I keep climbing The harder I push the more alone I am The recoil knocks me off because failure was a shot I knew so well Free will doesn’t matter when you’re too afraid to choose Free will doesn’t get you higher when you’re too paralyzed to move Free will doesn’t matter When you’ve got nothing Left to lose I spend my time Trying to detach just like you but you bait me to the noose with your apocalyptic threats To cut me loose Chorus X2 © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
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These days I’m spending lots of time alone Having nightmares Within dreams Dream of you Protecting me from the world Nightmare of you Destroying what you saved behind closed doors If I end it now Do you worry Your hands would be bloody? Because you’re so incredibly lonely But can’t get close Sometimes I need to pull away I’m sorry, I’m sorry I mean, really how much blood could you stomach Before you push me away? I’m sorry But I’m too afraid to say it So afraid it could be true That you’ll never really love me no matter what I do If you can’t now Will you never? Does it mean you never will? Why is it that you protect me From the world Just to destroy me behind closed doors? Is it because you’re so incredibly lonely But can’t get close? Is that why you destroy me? Is this why you protect me? If I end it now Would you worry Your hands would be bloody? Is this how you protect me? © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
4.
Peter Pan 03:43
You know that feeling When everyone is on cloud 9 And you’re the little boy Left behind Trying to play the part Fit into these shoes When you look down And just see what’s to lose Peter Pan was right Everyone is in a hurry To find someone To make things work And somehow friends Are lost and left behind And I’m Peter Pan waiting in the wings Hoping you all slow down Don’t you realize that you’re missing What’s really going down Cuz when I think about growing up I think of all the doubts I remember now What you were all about How real the pain was How much I had To give up— I mean grow for you How u only liked me on my knees Constantly apologizing How when I was sorry And I was always sorry You got off on making me crawl And how my friend got lost and left behind How when these things happen friends are hard to find I try to explain What it was like that being with you Was like playing 2 truths and a lie Tell me which version of you Do I get this time And I survived 27 Just in time And those friends were hard to find But atleast I figured out The truth In your lie It was that Peter Pan was right Peter Pan was right Everyone is in a hurry To find someone To make things work And somehow friends Are lost and left behind And I’m Peter Pan waiting in the wings Hoping you all slow down Don’t you realize that you’re missing You’re missing what it’s really all about Don’t you realize You’ve left me out © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
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Undone 04:18
Gotta cut away This feeling of waiting Everyone is just waiting For things to get better For things to get worse For Jesus to come save them For someone to lift the curse What are you waiting for? We are just waiting For love gone wrong to return With the anxiety of the chase That reminds us Of things that can’t be undone This can’t be undone Will it get better Or just enough to get me through Waiting to be saved Waiting for you When that world ends It’ll come down to just me and you And I’ll have waited out eternity Just to be undone by you Go live in delusion Like a girl playing wedding Trying on the dress for size Help yourself to the delusion That I’m gonna turn blue Won’t even breathe Will I sit and wait for you Did you really think I’d give up eternity Just for you? I’d do it just for you I hope that she’s nice to you In a way I never was And I hope she’d give up Eternity & everything Just to wait for you. Does she wait for you Like I do? Does she do it better Than I do? Would she wait it out Just to be undone by you? What are you waiting for? Cuz there will come a day Where I won’t do this anymore No I won’t feel it anymore So tell me what you’re waiting for. © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
6.
Drowning 03:25
Tidal waves Crashing over me I fantasize about doing what she did Going out at 3am And letting it go The ocean would be calm Satisfied after it took me home Chorus: I can’t make these doubts go away Tired out my 911 calls Too paralyzed to help myself See beyond these walls Everything is tied up (X2) The rope around my hands gets tighter And I cannot find you here (X2) Is this my lesson? Is this my punishment? I would’ve given up for so much less Just take the pressure off Stop the pain for just one day Let me catch a breath that’s left Give me one moment of calm Make the voices stop Take the pressure off Chorus Architecture of my heart Built on sand castles falling apart Another Day When my restless mind Plays hide-and-go-seek with time And I cannot find you here (X2) The rope around my neck gets tighter And I cannot find you here (X2) © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
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You got stronger So much stronger than me Cuz you are always the one The one I feed And breadcrumbs you used To get me by made me weak Chorus: And this is the last chance you’ll have To figure this out This is the last crumb I’ll leave for you lying about This is your last chance Better make it count Keep running away Go on and pretend You can outrun your demons within That you can outrun me That you can outrun this That killing someone off Actually kills them dead That you’re not just giving them power To hold it over your head I thrive in your darkness That only you and I see Because it’s the only thing I have from u That you’ve given just to me Chorus Bridge: There’s a fine line between Self-destruction and self-preservation There’s self-medication And then there’s self-annihilation But you can’t separate living With just getting by For now I’ll leave it in the dark Cuz it’s the only thing you’ve given to me Yeah, looks like I’ll be leaving Nothing, but crumbs of you behind when I leave Cuz this was the last time Yeah, this was the last time This is the last time I’ll get by with breadcrumbs You left behind This is the last time I pretend your dark Is some gift just for me This is the last time That loving you Will destroy me This is the last time That you get to outrun me This is the last time That I leave any part of me behind This is the last time Tell me did you figure it out Tell me did I even count © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
9.
Daddy's Girl 07:34
I’m afraid, I’m just like you Daddy’s girl Without a daddy to hold on to Those secrets we know That part of your world You let me see, yeah just me That part of you that died Right there in front of me You set the blue print Of the duality Of the hunter and hunted The protector and destroyer I was stuck inside Some Dickens' novel Where it was the best of times Or the worst of times and nothing Ever in between You were my baptism by fire For how cold and cruel The world could be Chorus: The shadows that followed Those monkeys on your back They weren’t buried Buried when you left We forget we are not our bodies And that our spirits live on And that we can still do damage Even after we are gone I get the attachment To you all these years Both of us misfits Who never belonged here X2 So tell me Did you really buy into What they did to you What they did to you We were always seduced by the same Dark mistress to stray Vagabond escapists we were I’m afraid I’m just like you But I wouldn’t trade it Even if I wanted to Chorus But through all the fight and fury I was always still A daddy's girl Just my daddy’s girl I’m afraid, I’m just like you All the mood swings Thirst for cruelty All your emotional weaponry You left me your legacy Just a daddy’s girl Just my daddy’s girl And I’m afraid I’ll end up With someone just like you So charming And so cruel Chorus © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
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So what happened to now I’m on the floor? So what happened to now That you’re suddenly okay? What happened to us Was I just a memory you loved? Was it ever really me, or Did I make a better story? You’re a dream I used to chase Just I drug I craved the taste You packed up, said your goodbyes I was still trying to figure out If you were coming closer Or you were just leaving me behind Were you leaving me behind? So happy for you So happy for you, I was so easy to get over I confused being the one Who wanted you the most With the one who was just Better for ya Must find life outside these letters Must find meaning in what could be better Please tell me this gets better You’re a dream I used to chase Just I drug I missed the taste So what happened to us, Was I just a memory you loved? Was it ever really me, or Did I make – Was I just one hell of a story? So happy for you So happy for you, I was so easy to get over You’re a dream I used to chase Just I drug I can’t stand the taste of © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
11.
Echo 04:00
I’m afraid you’ll always remember me With my heart always so heavy With you, with you As much as it kills me to raise it This white flag This towel must be thrown now At you, at you Chorus: I’m packing up all the guilt All the hurt and disappointment Over you, over you And moving out west Across the country Starting off fresh Just to forget you The only way to save me Is to kill off the you inside me Swallow the lump You left in my throat But all I see is you in everyone (where’d you come from) Worst of all, I see you in me your words like echoes I hear them Throughout everything Are you listening now? It’s time that you listen to me. Yeah, I gotta let you go Because I will always love you But I just don’t like you anymore I just don’t like you anymore Let me say it enough so It can echo throughout everything I do And I don’t forget that While I try to forget you One day I’ll forgot you Did you hear the echo this time? Did my cruelty remind you Of how you used to be So I’m moving out west Across the country Starting off fresh Just to forget you One day I’ll forgot you Did you hear the echo this time Every time you hear the echo You’ll remember that I love you But I just don’t like you anymore © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
12.
When I go I want you to know I let it hurt for too long Remember me Before the lights went out Before the blood & life drained out It was in my hands I’m no longer in yours And how could I do this To you, especially Just trust me It was my protective instincts Every day I was trapped Every that you punished Was my voluntary death at someone else’s hands (remember when I was in ur hands?) I’m so sorry for your loss No one will love you quite as much It’s true, it’s true But this way No one will hurt you like I do Don’t let em hurt you like I do When I meet the soil When I meet the fire You’ll know I bowed out gracefully Just another shot of whiskey This next chapter, I go alone I go it alone We get wrapped up in the fiction Tireless make believe But there’s too much truth In our story For either one of us to leave And when I go Remember me Before the lights went out Before the blood & life drained out It was in my hands I’m no longer in yours You’ll forever be the knot In my heart That’s kept me from slipping And falling apart Now let me go, It’s time to let me go It’s okay to feel relieved It’s okay to go on, just believe These mistakes, they were my own I’ll save you a seat On the other side Don’t want you to hurry Just take your time One day the right song will play The perfect letter will be read And it’ll be our time again But until then Remember me Before the lights went out Before the blood & life drained out It was in my hands I’m no longer in yours It’s time to let me go I’m slipping through your hands © 2013 Aminah & Fox Hunt Records, LLC. All Rights Reserved
13.
Na-Ta-Sha 04:49
I called you just to say I never wanted it to end that way I called you just to say I’ve missed you almost every day That all the blood on the moon Won’t scare me away I called you just to say All those letters – I never threw them away I called you just to say That I finally figured it out What all those fights were really all about That the hurt in your voice was real And pushing is just how you deal I called you just to say I love you with all I have I called you just to say That I’ll be by your side always Even when you’re wrong, my love Even when you’re so fucking wrong And that you’ve been the one all along And nothing else could do And no one will compare to you And even though you don’t get it now And even if I’m wrong Know that I loved you all the way through How could you How could you dare ask me to give you away? How could you just ask me to walk away? When I called you just to say That I loved you all the way So te liguei pra dizer Que te amo outra vez Te amo, te amo toda vez I called you just to say Maybe we’ll try again some other day? But if this is really the end now And if it’s really over Just know that I loved you all the way

about

This is a concept album based on the idea that we are all spiritual beings. The Parable (see The Parable, Outrun me, and Fox Hunt) features a girl lost in a macabre forest and focuses on her relationship with several creatures. At the end of each exchange, the characters exchange “gifts”. Although the gifts range from real to fictional, the real focus is on the energy exchanged between the characters. Life is a series of energy exchanges, some which are fleeting, and some which linger and become a part of us changing our spiritual DNA forever. This story is set somewhere between the physical world we see and the spiritual world we feel. There are spiritual doors that once opened cannot be closed (see Undone). This album explores the concept of various dualities in our lives between protector and destroyer (see Protective Destructive), good and evil, our connection to the living and the dead (see Drowning, Daddy’s Girl & Before the Lights Go Out). From the time we are children we are told fairy tales (see the Parable & Peter Pan) and learn to believe in magic and possibilities and then we grow up and are ripped from that world-- from the enchantment of believing. When we make ourselves vulnerable enough—stop censoring our minds (see Free Will) and allow the veil to be lifted, we are able to finally see things clearly. Through fury, mental exhaustion, insomnia and relentless nightmares, this album was born.

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released December 16, 2013

Label: Fox Hunt Records, LLC
Lyrics, music, guitar(s) & vocals: Aminah
Percussion: Brandon Eames
Audio Engineer: Pedro
Recording Studio: Dirty Vynil Entertainment Studios
Photography in album cover: Renata Almeida
Artwork/cover art: William Mendez (www.coroflot.com/williammendez)
Marketing Director: Charlotte Eames

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AMINAH Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Aminah is a Boston-bred, Brazilian native—an avid reader of Rainer Maria Rilke and a poet herself. She is influenced by a variety of artists: Maynard J. Kennan, Melissa Ferrick, Ani Difranco, Tori Amos, 7 Year Bitch, & Tom Waits. She has resurrected the words from within her in her first solo full-length album with emotive notes & stirring lyrics. ... more

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